Man Who Resisted Homosexuality Asks for Compassion
July 3, 2012
(left. Jesus curing the lame man.)
"Calling a person a pervert does nothing
to help someone who is homosexual or
who struggles with homosexual feelings."
by Ted
(henrymakow.com)
(This a response to some of the comments Al Thompson made regarding the guest article, "Pedophiles Demand Social Acceptance Gays Got .")
I am a 49-year-old man who has struggled with homosexual feelings for nearly all my life.
However, in spite of this, I have been married twice, divorced twice and have three sons by my first wife. I haven't engaged in a homosexual act in more than thirty years.
My homosexual feelings played a role in the demise of my first marriage. Even though I loved my wife, I got married because I felt that it was the only way to separate from my mother without her going crazy on me.
She was the first girl I ever dated and I didn't even kiss her until three weeks before our wedding. Later, I am sure she suspected something was wrong because of the way I dressed and because of my addiction to pornography. I am certain that this caused a lot of insecurity and suspicion which in turn created a level of distrust.
With my second wife, I told her of my homosexual struggle before getting married thinking she would support me in my efforts to be free. This turned out to be a big mistake. I'm not a professional but I am pretty sure she suffers with Borderline Personality Disorder. BPD's are absolutely unbearable to live with.
They're wonderfully sweet at first but then all hell breaks loose. She accused me of having flings with my male friends and griped at me whenever I looked at or talked with anyone else accusing me of "trying to impress them." She was the catalyst that prompted me to seek counseling from the pastor of my church.
I agree that homosexuality is not an inborn trait but is rather a mental disorder which is caused by an over-mothering or domineering mother and a physically or emotionally absent father. Because of this, a never-sated father hunger within our souls somehow developed into homosexual feelings.
We did not choose to have homosexual feelings and I can't think of one person who would.
By no fault of our own we struggle with our personal and sexual identity.
We have lived a life of terrible and profound confusion and are often driven into all sorts of desperation trying to figure out who we are and how we fit into society.
It took several years of counseling with the pastor of my church. And like it or not homosexuality is just one small facet of my identity, which I have come to accept.


Calling a person a pervert does nothing to help someone who is homosexual or who struggles with homosexual feelings. I can speak from personal experience of the untold hurt and rejection this kind of talk causes.
For me, rejection was the worst thing that could happen to me. When I was younger, I would have rather been horsewhipped than be rejected. The pain of a beating would be only temporary but feelings of rejection would last a lifetime.
To be called a pervert or a fag or any other derogatory name cuts deeply and will only push a person further into their mental illness.
Homosexual men need to be accepted as men by heterosexual men in order for us to become and feel more manly ourselves (because we weren't taught how) which will ease some of our homosexual feelings.
This is one reason why all my friends are heterosexual; they unknowingly help me be a man. 

I'm not sure how Al Thompson is able to link fornication with homosexuality and then to pedophilia.
Granted all those "sins" violate the body and can create victims but just because a person is homosexual does not mean he will abuse children.
That is quite a stretch. Would be any different if he were to connect male heterosexuality with the molestation of young girls?
Sometimes these scenarios are true but we clearly know that this is the exception and not the rule. The vast majority of men, gay or straight, do not molest children; only the psychotic few do such things and a some of those seemed to have worked themselves into positions of power and influence.
I was never molested by an adult male but I am drawn mainly to big, strong, hairy men; not children. As a child I was physically, verbally and mentally abused by my mother so, I surmise that my particular attraction is probably due to a subconscious desire that a "superman" would save me because my weak father wouldn't.
To see or read about a child who is abused in any way nearly sends me into a PTSD episode...then it makes me angry. I can't and won't watch movies or television programs which I know will depict any form of child abuse.
Also, Mr. Thompson lumps all government workers and religious people into the same category of child molesters. There are many fine and decent people who work for the government and religious institutions; none of whom have molested a child nor promoted such an evil thing. But their voices are being heard less and less because of systemic corruption.
I believe I understand what Mr. Thompson is trying to convey but I encourage him to take it easy on those of us who struggle with homosexuality.
I'm not saying that he has to approve or embrace it but rather be understanding and empathetic with our plight. That being said, the radical homosexual agenda should be challenged wherever and whenever possible because it destroys people, families and societies.
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Al Thompson Replies
Related - Wasn't Born Gay, Didn't Choose It
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First Comment from Jessica:
As the spurned wife of a man who lives two lives, I can attest to
the fact that his sexual abuse by an uncle at a tender age has caused
severe damage that did not surface until midlife. His mother was known
to physically assault her children, who strangely has no recollection of
the abuse she inflicted. Obvious denial, if you ask me. The father was
never there for his sons.
The uncle was the brother of the father...and all in the small town
knew that the uncle "liked little boys"...how sad that everyone in the
family played 'stupid' and pretended as though they never were aware of
the man's inclinations...as a matter of fact, the man was known in the
local homosexual community for decades! The man was a sodomite and the
family protected him! Little boys knew to stay away from him on the
street.
I think its obvious that sexual sins are usually generational
sins/curses. And this must go back for decades, because the perversion
can be felt among them. In the little I knew of them, I knew too
much...the idolizing of little girls, the perverted language of adults,
the open talk of adultery and lust...and I felt my husband was the
diamond that was so unlike his own family....but in time, the roots of
his upbringing and the secrets underground were forced up by the living
waters of the spirit of God....
I was paralyzed by the decision my husband made to turn from God ,
His truth and from me. His mind was befuddled and confused, and the
right road appeared to be too difficult a decision for him...it was much
easier for him to blame everyone else and look towards himself as the
only victim.
These behaviors of lust and coveting really affects the mind and it
is easy to see how these people can learn to "call good, evil; and evil
good". What I do know is that these individuals seem to have no
conscience when it comes to victimizing others, whether it is to satisfy
their lusts or to reflect their own guilt and shame onto someone else.
They cannot be honest with others because they cannot be honest with
themselves.
Many have Peter Pan syndrome, meaning that inside they never fully
mature. And they do all they can to hold tightly onto their youth.
This spiritual condition is referred to in scripture in various
words in passages, but it all comes down to making the self a god. These
people cannot deny themselves...they feel entitled.
They are hurt for life, and they often mask it for as long as
possible, creating more damage to themselves, and others along the way
through deception.
Once the deception is uncovered, and the person attempts to lessen
the severity of his./her sins by pointing fingers, the person becomes
blatantly proud of his/her choices.Their attitude towards God becomes
cold and their heart hardens against what they know deep inside to be
right.
It is so painful to watch another destruct, and ruin others, and
then rebuild a facade around their smoldering ruins of their life, again
able to hide their sins by their mature and philosophical demeanor.
And pedophiles and perverts always have an obscure and oftentimes
'new age' philosophy, which is as old as the serpent himself....again,
self deception caused by rejecting the one true Creator of heaven and
earth and all things therein....
What a sad testimony to the world that their open destruction of
social norms, meaning purity, virtue, and moral character, has been the
"pied piper" in our media, schools, workplace, and homes. The force of
the sodomite movement cannot be understated....remember the sodomites in
the OT? They were full of vile, force and anger....demonized....and
perverted....
It's truly a dangerous world...and my heart goes out to all parents
who are following God and fighting the good fight to protect their
children from the evils of this society ruled (for now) by satan....
Stephen said (July 4, 2012):
A real Christian will have compassion for Ted's plight. Many Christians I know are among some of the most bigoted and judgmental people on this planet. Even Jesus taught "Judge not, lest ye be judged" and it seems to go right over their heads.
Personally I have a gay friend. I don't approve of his past activities, as they have only brought him and loved ones pain and unhappiness. However he is an honest man and nonjudgmental and I have never heard anything contrary.
However, I know flag waving Christians that are thieves, holier-than-thous that cheat on their spouses and constantly emotionally abuse their children. Whenever I hear: "trust me, I'm Christian," watch out, I'm about to get screwed.
People with inappropriate sexual attractions often say they want help and when it is offered, even for free, they run to the hills. In addition most therapists fail at helping those that don't run because they don't know how to work with these issues. If you don't see good positive change within 4 sessions, better look for another therapist.
Frankly I don't see a self righteous Christian any better than a militant homosexual. Both are militant and both are wrong and quite miserable people. In fact the highest percentage of abuse victims of people with Narcissistic Personality Disorder are the wives and families of fundamentalist preachers.