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Country Boy in the Big City

October 5, 2020

aber.jpegA Male Model's Memoirs of Mixing With "Elite" (I)

The real goal of the homosexual movement is depopulation and trans-humanism.
 This is bioengineering the human race to serve the elite. 
Nathaniel looks at this emerging reality from street-level Los Angeles.

from July 12, 2012
by Nathaniel

I spent the last few years in the Los Angeles modeling, fashion, and entertainment world and have seen the cultural depravity practiced there. I have worked for and met many of the elite behind the New World Order agenda.

This is a personal story of the spiritual battle being waged by the elite against each individual soul. It is the story of how one can lose the soul to total ego-consciousness manipulated by promises and dreams of fame.

I grew up in rural Northwest America in a very healthy traditional setting, and I was probably as natural a kid as you could find.  As a youth, I really didn't care much about personal appearance, being popular, or what was fashionable.

I was very individualistic and cared more about exploring life than trying to impress others.  I was pretty average to look at through my teens; just a normal country boy.  I never thought I could end up in LA due to my looks.

All of that changed when I picked up weight training.  I was pretty strong from all the manual labor so when I changed my eating habits and dedicated myself to the gym, I was able to really change my body quickly.

Within a few months I was getting quite a lot of attention from girls and everyone would tell me I should get into modeling and movies.

This was all strange to me, as I had never thought of myself in that way, but I can tell you flattery can start to work on someone very quickly, especially when you are not aware of it.

I focused hard on working out for the next few years. I decided to put my photos online and see what others thought.

I was quickly contacted by a few people from New York and Los Angeles.  This is when my ego-consciousness began to really dominate over my inner-self, and it kept me confused for about three years.


When you get to LA and throw yourself into the modeling world, you quickly realize that you must learn how to deal with homosexually afflicted men.  Nearly 100 percent of photographers in LA that shoot any sort of fashion or muscle magazines (even mainstream fitness instruction varieties) are homosexual.  I was quite astounded to find out that even if a guy simply wanted to do layouts for exercise magazines, nutritional supplement ads, and the like, he MUST be willing to do photo-shoots in his underwear at least. 

This is to get the attention of influential photographers and magazine editors.  This was very strange to me at the beginning, but the photographers and agents know how to stroke the ego so that soon you will do revealing photos that only a few months earlier you would not have. 

Most photographers(even successful ones) would shoot me for free for my book as long as I would do some underwear photos semi-aroused.  Some would even pay me $150 dollars an hour to shoot in this fashion.  The saddest part about it is that it seems the more famous the photographer, the most perverse he is.  

I was told by many thinner guys who were cast for the Abercrombie and Fitch catalogs, that the photographer told them that the ones who made the catalog (and got the 5-figure check) were the ones who would let themselves be fondled.  

Most homosexuals desire a masculine straight man much more than they desire another homosexual.  I had this confessed to me many times, sometimes in a joking way, other times more sincerely by those who know it is a problem.

Some of the men and women who have really dropped into the darker depths of this psychosis call straight people "breeders" in a derogatory way. These individuals I believe know that the real goal of the homosexual movement is depopulation and trans-humanism for the elite.  I have been told several times by these types that is was "such a waste" that I was
straight.  I was even told once to "grow up" when I rejected homo-sexuality for myself. They see a good looking man who is straight as "less evolved."


This is in line with Free-Masonic male elitism.  Many of them see that having a woman (and children) in your life requires compassion and patience, two things which are not efficient when your mind is fixated on material accumulation, social status accolades, and random sexual encounters.  

This makes some think that straight men are hampered by caring for women.  I also noticed when I bartended for rich banking and law families' parties that the successful men (many were homo-sexual) in those worlds basically had a homosexual-like relationship with their wives, as they seemed free to do as they pleased sexually on the side. 

It seems obvious to me that the elite has rigged this economic system so that anything natural is hindered in its very existence.  In LA a natural, healthy man and woman relationship seems simply impossible.  There is every pressure on a woman to be anything but a natural woman: the feminist call to be a businesswoman, the magazines and homosexual male friends telling them to hop in bed with every hot guy, even the pushing and shoving on public transit in at rush hour forces everyone to become androgynous.  

All this has added up to staggering rates of females committing suicide there in their 30s, 40s, and 50s, and also a bizarre world where you simply don't know who is homosexual and who is not anymore when it comes to young guys in the "scene."  It seems that they have so normalized homosexuality that more guys are just falling over the edge.

 In the modeling and entertainment world in the city, they have actually made it seem "cool" or very cosmopolitan to be a male homosexual or at least be open to it.

People who still have maintained some goodness in this scientifically degraded society have to be aware of the spiritual battle taking place. Many have become deviant.  We must have compassion because I do know some (although they are in a very small minority) homosexuals who don't do the immoral acts I described above, but never, ever give up your logical sense on compassion's behalf.  Decency and depravity really cannot co-exist in close quarters.

Scruples - the game of moral dillemas

Comments for "Country Boy in the Big City "

Len said (July 14, 2012):

If you do the research, nearly ALL luciferian and satanist philosophies and cults push homosexual lust,
incest, and child-pornography. Homosexual lust {"love"} is not only a perversion of the natural order, it is
ungodly and leads to a searing of the conscience in men and women. Along with that: women tend to be
"like men" and men tend toward acting "like women." It's a sickness. and the origin of it is absolutely satanic.
The Apostle Paul, a man who truly had the Mind of Christ, put it this way:

Romans 1:21-32

New King James Version (NKJV)

21 because, although they knew God, they did not glorify Him as God, nor were thankful, but became futile in their thoughts, and their foolish hearts were darkened.

22 Professing to be wise, they became fools,

23 and changed the glory of the incorruptible God into an image made like corruptible man—and birds and four-footed animals and creeping things.

24 Therefore God also gave them up to uncleanness, in the lusts of their hearts, to dishonor their bodies among themselves,

25 who exchanged the truth of God for the lie, and worshiped and served the creature rather than the Creator, who is blessed forever. Amen.

26 For this reason God gave them up to vile passions. For even their women exchanged the natural use for what is against nature.

27 Likewise also the men, leaving the natural use of the woman, burned in their lust for one another, men with men committing what is shameful, and receiving in themselves the penalty of their error which was due to their sin.

28 And even as they did not like to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them over to a debased mind, to do those things which are not fitting; 29 being filled with all unrighteousness, sexual immorality, wickedness, covetousness, maliciousness; full of envy, murder, strife, deceit, evil-mindedness; they are whisperers, 30 backbiters, haters of God, violent, proud, boasters, inventors of evil things, disobedient to parents, 31 undiscerning, untrustworthy, unloving, unforgiving,[b] unmerciful;

32 who, knowing the righteous judgment of God, that those who practice such things are deserving of death, not only do the same but also approve of those who practice them.

TD said (July 14, 2012):

Herewith is a link to ESPN “Body Issue. [owned by Illuminati ABC-TV.] Judging from the landing page, this is the fourth time this magazine has had such an issue. This issue has to be the most disgusting; if fact, in my opinion it is the most disgusting magazine of our times. Essentially, what it does is debauch society further by championing homosexuality.

This magazine and what it portends should be written about. I think an article by you would be read widely and greatly appreciated. See

If you go to the Daily Mail you would see another slutty picture, one of Giselle Bundchen Brady, wife of the Boston Patriots quarterback, Tom Brady.

Only two things need to be done to ruin a civilization and efforts are in full swing to make it happen. These two things are debasing the money system (actually this has been going on forever) and to debauch the morality of society, a la the ancient Grecian and Roman empires.

L said (July 14, 2012):

I really enjoyed the article by Nathaniel on his experiences as a male model.

In the 70's and 80's I was a model. I dated several extremely handsome str8 male models and photographers. Homosexuals were around of course, but it was not as blatant and seemingly "normal" as it is today. It wasn't considered super "cool" to engage in homosexual acts or the lifestyle back then.

I can attest to the fact of what Nathaniel said on homosexuals preferring str8 men, it's absolutely true. They try to "convert" them all the time. Often times by getting their intended target very drunk or stoned.

There is something very devious and distasteful about that.

I'm glad Nathaniel was able to hold onto his true values and true self while being immersed and doused in the sickness that exists in the industry and especially in New York.

I found it very sad to hear about all of the suicides, no doubt from lonely women who feel there are no men for them anymore.

Paul said (July 14, 2012):

Your article on male modeling is a good warning on the negative side of physical culture. Thanks

Al Thompson said (July 12, 2012):

I would call this psycho engineering. The spirit of evil resides in homosexuality and sexual depravity. These homos are worthless to God, their families, and their friends. When you think about what a man has to put himself through in order to be a homo is simply outrageous. The homosexual looses all the good things of life. There is absolutely no profit for a man who engages in such things.

Having been on the receiving end of unwanted advances by homosexuals when I was a young man, I never met one that I liked nor one that I had any respect. Homos are very aggressive and quite frankly were just extremely annoying. They act like whiny little bitches. It is very stupid to get involved with this kind of activity. The compassion should be for those who were homosexuals and then repented to normal. I will reserve my compassion and respect for those who do that successfully. It can be done; and it should be done.

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